8:01 a.m. - 2004-10-21
Normal
I am afraid. I feel like I live in a world full of normal people. They frighten me. I dream of normalcy And it wakes me in the middle of the night. Mouth open in a silent scream. At stop lights I quick Turn off your music. Roll up the windows. Cower down in the seat. Slinking. Afraid they will see me and recognize me for what I am not. At work I smile. I smile and pretend. Good morning! I chirp!!! Howwasyoureveningwhatareyoumakingfordinnertonight?Doyouloveyourfamily?Dontyouwanttojustdiealready? With your sanctimonius religion. With your pearly whites. I hate everything about you. I want to be you. I am afraid of you. I am afraid of myself. I long for a cool, dark place to hide. A womb in which to be reborn. A place to feel a mother's love. A place to start again.
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