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8:01 a.m. - 2004-10-21
I am afraid.

I feel like I live in a world full of normal people.
They frighten me.
I dream of normalcy
And it wakes me in the middle of the night.
Mouth open in a silent scream.

At stop lights
I quick
Turn off your music.
Roll up the windows.
Cower down in the seat.
Afraid they will see me and recognize me for what I am not.

At work I smile.
I smile and pretend.
Good morning! I chirp!!!
With your sanctimonius religion.
With your pearly whites.
I hate everything about you.
I want to be you.
I am afraid of you.
I am afraid of myself.

I long for a cool, dark place to hide.
A womb in which to be reborn.
A place to feel a mother's love.
A place to start again.



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